My Heart…….

is breaking
and I don’t know why
as I bought into
all of societies norms
and conformed
and in the process
I lost myself…..
my heart is breaking
and I don’t know why
it’s not the lovers that leave me
why my heart is breaking
as I always feel so alone
could it be me
who really abandoned me
as the lovers
are just reflecting that
back to me
in this illusion called living and life
did I lose myself with them
or
had I already lost myself
when I conformed
in the world
that makes it seem
so natural and normal
to do so
yet
when I wake up each morning
and my heart is breaking
and I am alone
I often wonder
if conforming is the price I pay
for losing myself
along the way………..
Jodi
xo